After a full three week stay in the college town where I live, away from my friends and family, coming home has been like walking out of a place totally bereft of color and life to a world where everything has warmth and meaning.
I have been living in a drought, but here I have found water again.
Why do I say love is the most pacifying element? Up to Friday night, I had been ready to fight everything. Nothing was good and everything had to be reformed, in my eyes. I was anti everything, because nothing was as it should be. As I found out, everything had been missing love. I sometimes forget how much I need affection, how much I need someone to listen to my grievances, how much I need a kind word, how much I need to have fun, how much I need to sometimes let everything go, and how much I need somewhere where I fit in. When I came back to love, I realized how hardened I had become, how cynical and critical I had been, and how little I thought of the world. Now, love has softened me, again. I no longer feel at odds with the world. I feel like there is hope and that I am no longer fighting this enormous battle all by myself. Love is the most important anything in the world.
So, thank you my friends and family. Thank you for giving me a place in your hearts. I love you.
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