speed racer

speed racer, more than any other movie, encapsulates what i am and who i want to be; it delves down and touches my deepest desires.  it is braveheart with goofy characters and psychedelic scenes, and it is my favorite movie of all time...right now.  i love understanding my self better.  speed racer.  go.

this is ironic because of how i have felt for the last two or three days.

I have nothing to give to you
I bequeath of my self whatever you will make of me

In a spirit of uncompromising love,

All the lines
Converge in a single point
When they stretch that far
In a moment of uncompromising joy


but it has, more than anything else, taken the edge off of the desire for what is not important.  i just want to be me.

i have been feeling trapped until today.  i have felt like i need new territory to explore in my heart/poetry.  the thing i realized is that i have never worked on any large scale poems, never covering more than one or two ideas in my poems.  i'm going to try something bigger.  i set some ground rules so i don't get frustrated and give up right from the start.  the poem is going to be based on this idea i started working on today-

I am the water

I am the water,
and I am talking to you

I want to be interrupted by the squelching of the rain

I feel the blood pumping through my veins
a cavern-watcher

Surface meets surface
When I'm talking to you

As my sides well up
and wrap around your hand

Everything is power
It is power, the beast descends

Thrashing in the winds
Carried by a triangle, a blue triangle

Belie belie, the heartiest name belie!
An open boat on the sea

The back of my hands, I am the water,
Expose a rhythm new a

Vision to a nearer vision
And time passes like medicine in a cabinet

But I'm the water
And I'm talking to you

Spindly tidal waves, oceans beyond
Everything is new now,
Everything was gone


and now, i doubt anything has ever made me happier than this.